[Aurora's been crying is why this is in voice, not video. She didn't want anyone to see her in such a state.]
Oh... [She sounds so embarrassed about how much she hadn't realized just how much ZUKO needed much more open conversation.] I... see... I shall... [She takes a deep breath.] Honestly, Hikaru, I am not sure what to do. I'd like to be forthright about my feelings for him, but he's been so reticent in so many ways. I know more about his uncle than I do about him! [And she is glad that he shared things that were important to him, but she'd actually like to learn about HIM every now and then.]
Oh. [Wait wasn't dating-] OH! [Her eyes widen.] I- that does... pose quite a good question. I am not sure. I had thought, perhaps, he meant more... a Lady and her Knight. But if he wishes to... ah- date, was it? I am not sure, he made it clear where his preference lied and I did not wish to insist upon the matter. But if being a couple is dating, then I do not really understand what it is he desires of me?
I do. I had... started to allow myself to think what it might be like to be with someone I actually knew and enjoyed being with, rather than my betrothed. And when I pictured such a thing, they would be the ones it was all with. A daydream, certainly, but a pleasant one all the same.
I'm not sure, admittedly. [She'd... like to be kissed, if even just once.] I am happy in their company, I was happy as their friend, and I didn't dare consider anything further than that, not until very recently.
If I were allowed to indulge my flights of fancy, I would want the three of us in a romantic courtship, just as my three aunts were, happy and loving and supporting one another. But that is a daydream, and I should wake up.
The only reason I know so much about Zuko is because of the ocean bubble. [This probably sounds very weird and Hikaru is quick to explain.] We got trapped in a bubble in the ocean. In the bubble we ended up hearing all of our worst memories played for us. Zuko didn't tell me anything willingly. I would probably be clueless about a lot too if it weren't for that. Zuko is just...shy? He's working through a lot so I guess he needs patience. [He thinks? Hikaru really wishes he had Tamaki right now. Guy is an idiot but he has always been good at crap like this. Hikaru's out of his league right now.
He is not even sure where to touch all three of them dating. Hikaru's not against the three people idea even if he's never heard of it before and he's not sure how it would work but this isn't what this is about. Aurora can't see how he puts a hand through his hair and frowns deeply. What does he tell her? ]
I...don't think it's a daydream. I think you just chose two guys who need to figure stuff out and if they were smart then they'd date you. Or uh, court you. Give them time and see what happens but I don't think you were being dumb. You don't sound dumb at all right now. [He wishes he could tell her she is being the only sane one right now. She should hear it.]
I see, I shall try and be even more patient. then. [But she's only human. She doesn't want to rush Zuko, but sometimes it feels like she'll be an old maid first before even a gleam of attraction comes from Zuko regarding her.]
Thank you, Hikaru, I suppose I just wanted reassurance. I've never been in any situation like this before. I feel like I'm constantly misstepping and upsetting those I'd never want to hurt. I will give them their time and space. I know what is like to feel rushed regarding matters of the heart.
I would say I feel lost in the woods, but I know the woods. [She sighed.] I... I have absolutely no knowledge of how any sort of romantic relationship works. The only man I ever deeply liked, loved, perhaps even, I immediately could no longer see because I found out I was betrothed and could never see him again.
So, I truly appreciate your help, Hikaru. Thank you for being such a good friend.
Well, I can't really say I'm an expert on romance either. Taichi's been my first...everything. [But it means a lot to Hikaru that he's been a good friend and that someone sees that. Even if Hikaru doesn't feel like he's been useful at all. Not when all he can think about is how Kaoru or Tamaki would have handled this better.
But all he can offer is:] Talk to me if you have any other problems. Or if you want to. I just wouldn't mind, I guess.
Perhaps so, but the way you both adore one another is quite clear.
I will most certainly call upon you again, hopefully with much better news. I hope my patience is rewarded. Thank you for being such a good friend, Hikaru. I felt quite lost on all this.
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Oh... [She sounds so embarrassed about how much she hadn't realized just how much ZUKO needed much more open conversation.] I... see... I shall... [She takes a deep breath.] Honestly, Hikaru, I am not sure what to do. I'd like to be forthright about my feelings for him, but he's been so reticent in so many ways. I know more about his uncle than I do about him! [And she is glad that he shared things that were important to him, but she'd actually like to learn about HIM every now and then.]
Oh. [Wait wasn't dating-] OH! [Her eyes widen.] I- that does... pose quite a good question. I am not sure. I had thought, perhaps, he meant more... a Lady and her Knight. But if he wishes to... ah- date, was it? I am not sure, he made it clear where his preference lied and I did not wish to insist upon the matter. But if being a couple is dating, then I do not really understand what it is he desires of me?
I do. I had... started to allow myself to think what it might be like to be with someone I actually knew and enjoyed being with, rather than my betrothed. And when I pictured such a thing, they would be the ones it was all with. A daydream, certainly, but a pleasant one all the same.
I'm not sure, admittedly. [She'd... like to be kissed, if even just once.] I am happy in their company, I was happy as their friend, and I didn't dare consider anything further than that, not until very recently.
If I were allowed to indulge my flights of fancy, I would want the three of us in a romantic courtship, just as my three aunts were, happy and loving and supporting one another. But that is a daydream, and I should wake up.
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He is not even sure where to touch all three of them dating. Hikaru's not against the three people idea even if he's never heard of it before and he's not sure how it would work but this isn't what this is about. Aurora can't see how he puts a hand through his hair and frowns deeply. What does he tell her? ]
I...don't think it's a daydream. I think you just chose two guys who need to figure stuff out and if they were smart then they'd date you. Or uh, court you. Give them time and see what happens but I don't think you were being dumb. You don't sound dumb at all right now. [He wishes he could tell her she is being the only sane one right now. She should hear it.]
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Thank you, Hikaru, I suppose I just wanted reassurance. I've never been in any situation like this before. I feel like I'm constantly misstepping and upsetting those I'd never want to hurt. I will give them their time and space. I know what is like to feel rushed regarding matters of the heart.
[It sucks. It majorly sucks.]
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You have to look out for yourself, too. Don't put your own things on hold if you're waiting too long.
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[Hikaru would have been demanding answers yesterday.]
If you need anything else then let me know, okay? Things like this can be frustrating so I get it.
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So, I truly appreciate your help, Hikaru. Thank you for being such a good friend.
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But all he can offer is:] Talk to me if you have any other problems. Or if you want to. I just wouldn't mind, I guess.
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I will most certainly call upon you again, hopefully with much better news. I hope my patience is rewarded. Thank you for being such a good friend, Hikaru. I felt quite lost on all this.