how is SHE a "whole other thing?!?!!?" SHE IS "THE THING"
i don't understand ANYTHING right now
i JUST woke up two days ago with a GIANT FUCKING SCAR ON MY CHEST from my sister almost KILLING ME ID RATHER BE WITH AZULA RIGHT NOW AT LEAST I KNEW WHAT TO EXPECT WITH HER
[ How does Azula make her way into their conversations about romance so much... but also, Zuko, this is maybe not the time to reveal this new fun fact you gained during your special nap!!!! ]
no she tried to kill katara but i jumped in front of her lightning she cheated during our agni kai, it was a fight for the throne, katara was on the sidelines so really katara won... she chained her to a grate. azula went wild. it was so sad. watching her... and i guess after that, azula told me here, i put her in a mental asylum.....
that's the only memory i gained after zunyan put me to sleep. azula going crazy in our agni kai. and trying to kill katara. and shooting me with lightning. and katara healing me.
AND NOW THIS.
[ Zuko, you're being way, way, way too casual... Why are you more upset talking about Gokudera and Aurora than, um, this wild ass story you neglected to mention before...? ]
because i'm already stressed about that after i woke up and my connection grew weak with zunyan because i was depressed about azula and uncle disappearing that's what zun told me in a dream... i think.......
anyway i just didn't expect this...
[ And he's realized since Azula leaving that he still fancies Gokudera and he's confused but doesn't want to tell Hikaru because he knows he won't approve... ]
and in any case!!! WHY did you never tell me Azula reached out to you wanting to murder Gokudera?!?!! what the fuck?!!? WHEN??
[ He's not answering the question about how many people Azula has gone after... cuz it's, like... everyone? ]
if i told you then you'd go to her and then she could have gone after me?? i know how this crap works. especially since she seems so kill-happy.
[He's here to survive, damn it. And if Azula did really go after Gokudera then he had guessed Gokudera would be fine up against her. Unlike Hikaru, who wouldn't have been able to make it.]
but listen she asked gokudera out, right? did you ask her yet?
[Learning not to assume the worst about people is still something that Hikaru is learning so when even he's like damn chill? You know you need to chill.]
or she had work and then plans with gokudera. probably wasn't trying to hide this from you?
but you two have been doing this for ages and she's some girl from the woods who just had a lot thrown on her plate. also from her time you can't exactly be forward when you're in her position.
[But then she asked Gokudera out??? There's a lot he doesn't understand about this situation.
But talking to Gokudera has him concerned about something:]
are you upset at gokudera for aurora asking him out? or aurora for asking him out?
i'm pulling my hair out. you're going to make me go bald. is this what i get for all the bald jokes i made about you?
you haven't told aurora anything and it's been how long? gokudera...well, guy's still an asshole in my book but you didn't tell him you liked aurora. you've never even told him in any world about what the hell happened, did you? back in lunatia?
make shit happen, zuko. nothing's going to happen unless you do something.
i never told him because he's not that person i don't expect him to be that person again he's different. but...... i still like him... as he is now. i realized the night uncle and azula disappeared. he spent the night. but he's with yamamoto. he's ALWAYS with yamamoto. that's his destiny. i can't compete with that. or disrespect that. he was with like six different yamamoto's before they got engaged in that other world, he was with yamamoto in lunatia, if yamamoto were still here, they'd be with each other again here, too, i'm sure....!!! and yamamoto is GREAT. i respect yamamoto. we're so different, but i admired him in Lunatia. i'm certain he was an excellent boyfriend. yamamoto is so kind and levelheaded and lighthearted. he could laugh anything off. yamamoto is such a good person that he could even date AZULA easily!!! he's just naturally kinder than me. she was happier with him. gokudera would be too. i'm not good at this......
my friendship with gokudera is too important to fuck everything up knowing all this after everything was fucked up last time just by one kiss that wasn't even meant for me. it was just practice for yamamoto. i don't want to be a stand-in again...
as to aurora...... i know i should have told her how i felt a long time ago. i couldn't ask her earlier... it's complicated. but i'm ready now.
and i'm going to ask her out tomorrow when we go to tea.
he's not that gokudera but he's still a gokudera. what if you hadn't remembered anything about lunatia?? would you have wanted me to never tell you about our friendship?
you're scared to tell him because of this guy. what if he comes back and gokudera wants to be with him again. i don't like gokudera and i think you could do better but you're not going to listen to me about that so listen to me about this: you two aren't from the same world. if we go home then everything here is over. just enjoy what you got.
and if you don't ask aurora-chan out i'll be pissed.
[ Every word of that hits its mark. Every single word. Zuko's floored... It takes him pause to respond, and it's once again, lackluster, but Hikaru knows Zuko well enough to imagine his face and demeanor and how this resonated... He's a smart guy; he knows exactly what he's doing here, even if Zuko (& Co.) make him want to pull his hair out. ]
[Hikaru knows that Zuko's finally listening because if he wasn't then he would be arguing still. He'd be saying how wrong Hikaru was or how this isn't that easy.
But he's not so Hikaru let's out a breath. He finally got through to him.]
[ Hikaru knows him so well… he knows how to get through to Zuko on nearly an Iroh-level understanding of this troubled, troublesome, troubling young man… A horrifying undersea bubble trap and being roommates on an alien planet for half a year must be pretty profound. He’s lucky to have such a good friend — someone so patient… only in an alternate universe would Hikaru be emphatically called patient, though. The rest of the Host Club would be so proud of him today. ]
[ An hour or less go by and Zuko sends Hikaru three photos, feeling empowered and self-satisfied. Determined. Spiteful. Romantic. And had also been gassed up by the Avatar that he’d made very good moves here that he’s now eager to show off to his other best friend.
Zuko sends three photos:
A handmade envelope of rice paper with Aurora’s name beautifully written in calligraphy in Zuko’s home language, fluently understood by the linguistic magic of Avalon — but artfulness can’t be exactly translated, can it?
An even more elegant, simplistic, sumi e-esque painting of a crane wading in water, staring up at a bright red sun, as the clouds part above it. Like THAT doesn’t mean something, surely… Zuko can be romantic when he wants, see! Albeit at the eleventh hour once things are already messy, unfortunately, but well, here we are. Despite his fury and confusion and anxiety over it all, he’s feeling confident his meaning will be understood. Aang caught the symbolism right away when Zuko showed him, which was extremely validating and encouraging, so Zuko feels certain Aurora will, too.
Both images are stamped with a traditional calligraphy name stamp as a signature: Zuko. Surely nothing can be lost in translation here, can it…?
A third and final picture is attached, a beautiful flower arrangement of amaryllises and complimentary others. Definitely not made by Zuko — but he did say he’d planned on ordering her flowers. It’s obvious the arrangement is sitting outside a cottage door on a doorstep, the envelope bearing Aurora’s name attached to it. He’s just left it at her door as a surprise. Some type of grand romantic gesture. Is it romantic or is it cowardly…? Who can say. But it’s definitely intentional. Mindful. And definitely taking action at long last. ]
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i thought she liked me
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hell if i understand anything going on anymore but this is so wrong
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SHE IS "THE THING"
i don't understand ANYTHING right now
i JUST woke up two days ago with a GIANT FUCKING SCAR ON MY CHEST from my sister almost KILLING ME
ID RATHER BE WITH AZULA RIGHT NOW
AT LEAST I KNEW WHAT TO EXPECT WITH HER
[ How does Azula make her way into their conversations about romance so much... but also, Zuko, this is maybe not the time to reveal this new fun fact you gained during your special nap!!!! ]
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AND WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME THIS NOW???
[Every day he thinks about Kaoru and right now he is desperately wishing he had Kaoru to help calm this all down.]
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but i jumped in front of her lightning
she cheated during our agni kai, it was a fight for the throne, katara was on the sidelines
so really katara won... she chained her to a grate. azula went wild.
it was so sad. watching her...
and i guess after that, azula told me here, i put her in a mental asylum.....
that's the only memory i gained after zunyan put me to sleep.
azula going crazy in our agni kai. and trying to kill katara. and shooting me with lightning. and katara healing me.
AND NOW THIS.
[ Zuko, you're being way, way, way too casual... Why are you more upset talking about Gokudera and Aurora than, um, this wild ass story you neglected to mention before...? ]
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too much murder. how many people has she gone after?
why do you care more about gokudera and aurora?? why are we even talking about all of this like it's related?????
[As he is also now talking to Gokudera.]
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because i'm already stressed about that after i woke up
and my connection grew weak with zunyan because i was depressed about azula and uncle disappearing
that's what zun told me in a dream... i think.......
anyway i just
didn't expect this...
[ And he's realized since Azula leaving that he still fancies Gokudera and he's confused but doesn't want to tell Hikaru because he knows he won't approve... ]
and in any case!!!
WHY did you never tell me Azula reached out to you wanting to murder Gokudera?!?!! what the fuck?!!? WHEN??
[ He's not answering the question about how many people Azula has gone after... cuz it's, like... everyone? ]
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[He's here to survive, damn it. And if Azula did really go after Gokudera then he had guessed Gokudera would be fine up against her. Unlike Hikaru, who wouldn't have been able to make it.]
but listen she asked gokudera out, right? did you ask her yet?
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[ That's still not great, Zuko... ]
anyway... i did ask aurora out. the day i woke up. we're going out to tea tomorrow.
i'm also going to message this woman i know who owns a flower shop. and i'm going to paint her something. i don't know what yet.
[ He's kicking it into high gear, Hikaru, be proud of him. ]
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[He wants to live, Zuko.]
so did you say this was a date to aurora? or courting her or whatever? did you make that clear?
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i said "i'd like to take you out to tea tomorrow if you're free."
but she said she's working...
...do you think she lied because she knew she was going out with gokudera today?
[ Zuko, you lil paranoid fuck, just trust her. Why, suddenly, would you assume Aurora is a liar? Get out of your head. ]
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or she had work and then plans with gokudera. probably wasn't trying to hide this from you?
but you two have been doing this for ages and she's some girl from the woods who just had a lot thrown on her plate. also from her time you can't exactly be forward when you're in her position.
[But then she asked Gokudera out??? There's a lot he doesn't understand about this situation.
But talking to Gokudera has him concerned about something:]
are you upset at gokudera for aurora asking him out? or aurora for asking him out?
[The last question can be taken a lot of ways.]
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[ He's thick, Hikaru, you know that. He needs it spelled out. ]
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[FINE. HE'LL SAY IT!]
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[ That didn't answer the question... ]
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you still like gokudera and you like aurora. you're mad that she asked him out because it means neither of them are going out with you.
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now what
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you haven't told aurora anything and it's been how long? gokudera...well, guy's still an asshole in my book but you didn't tell him you liked aurora. you've never even told him in any world about what the hell happened, did you? back in lunatia?
make shit happen, zuko. nothing's going to happen unless you do something.
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i don't expect him to be that person again
he's different. but...... i still like him... as he is now.
i realized the night uncle and azula disappeared. he spent the night.
but he's with yamamoto.
he's ALWAYS with yamamoto. that's his destiny. i can't compete with that. or disrespect that.
he was with like six different yamamoto's before they got engaged in that other world, he was with yamamoto in lunatia, if yamamoto were still here, they'd be with each other again here, too, i'm sure....!!!
and yamamoto is GREAT. i respect yamamoto. we're so different, but i admired him in Lunatia. i'm certain he was an excellent boyfriend. yamamoto is so kind and levelheaded and lighthearted. he could laugh anything off. yamamoto is such a good person that he could even date AZULA easily!!! he's just naturally kinder than me. she was happier with him. gokudera would be too.
i'm not good at this......
my friendship with gokudera is too important to fuck everything up knowing all this after everything was fucked up last time just by one kiss that wasn't even meant for me. it was just practice for yamamoto. i don't want to be a stand-in again...
as to aurora......
i know i should have told her how i felt a long time ago.
i couldn't ask her earlier...
it's complicated.
but i'm ready now.
and i'm going to ask her out tomorrow when we go to tea.
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you're scared to tell him because of this guy. what if he comes back and gokudera wants to be with him again. i don't like gokudera and i think you could do better but you're not going to listen to me about that so listen to me about this: you two aren't from the same world. if we go home then everything here is over. just enjoy what you got.
and if you don't ask aurora-chan out i'll be pissed.
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okay
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But he's not so Hikaru let's out a breath. He finally got through to him.]
finally.
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[ Hikaru knows him so well… he knows how to get through to Zuko on nearly an Iroh-level understanding of this troubled, troublesome, troubling young man… A horrifying undersea bubble trap and being roommates on an alien planet for half a year must be pretty profound. He’s lucky to have such a good friend — someone so patient… only in an alternate universe would Hikaru be emphatically called patient, though. The rest of the Host Club would be so proud of him today. ]
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Zuko sends three photos:
A handmade envelope of rice paper with Aurora’s name beautifully written in calligraphy in Zuko’s home language, fluently understood by the linguistic magic of Avalon — but artfulness can’t be exactly translated, can it?
An even more elegant, simplistic, sumi e-esque painting of a crane wading in water, staring up at a bright red sun, as the clouds part above it. Like THAT doesn’t mean something, surely… Zuko can be romantic when he wants, see! Albeit at the eleventh hour once things are already messy, unfortunately, but well, here we are. Despite his fury and confusion and anxiety over it all, he’s feeling confident his meaning will be understood. Aang caught the symbolism right away when Zuko showed him, which was extremely validating and encouraging, so Zuko feels certain Aurora will, too.
Both images are stamped with a traditional calligraphy name stamp as a signature: Zuko. Surely nothing can be lost in translation here, can it…?
A third and final picture is attached, a beautiful flower arrangement of amaryllises and complimentary others. Definitely not made by Zuko — but he did say he’d planned on ordering her flowers. It’s obvious the arrangement is sitting outside a cottage door on a doorstep, the envelope bearing Aurora’s name attached to it. He’s just left it at her door as a surprise. Some type of grand romantic gesture. Is it romantic or is it cowardly…? Who can say. But it’s definitely intentional. Mindful. And definitely taking action at long last. ]
so? what do you think?
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